Testimony Part 1 Roxanne Marie Byzewski
Before, and After Jesus
Written by Roxy Marie Byzewski. Note: This is not the full Testimony but only a piece of what can inspire the body of Christ!
Many of you do not know who I used to be, and many of you do. I am not the same as I once was, I have been made new! I am still just a sinner just like everyone else, but I used to be in a very wild and chaotic place in life. This was not so long ago. The first picture I have up is the night of the Marilyn Manson show in 2011-yes you heard me right. After my sister’s sudden tragic death in 1997 I plummeted so far from reality and I ran from God. Eventually I got caught up in the world and I’ve done some things that I horribly regret. I was a wild and crazy insane girl spinning out of control with the weight of sin settling deep within me. I let go of everything I knew about Jesus and I left Him. This is not so easy for me to tell, but I must. I spiralled so far down into the world that I found myself out of control, and I did not know what to do. Satan had his claws around me tight and did not want to let my light shine again, keeping me in the darkness of this world. God needed to do something to shake me awake without hurting me more than I could take, so that He did in 2012. Some know the story, some do not, and I will spare the specifics for my children’s sake. I started to lose everything I had worked so hard to achieve…my freedom, my job, my friends, my family, my marriage…it all fell apart.
God awoke me jolting hard my reality, stirring up the sweet compassionate little girl buried deep within. He peeled me back, layer by layer, and started to remould me upon His potters wheel. I fell off time and time again and sometimes I even jumped off because I didn’t know what was happening to my spirit-I was being awakened to His Light and His Truth-my spirit was crying to be set free. Little did I know God’s true plan for me, what He was doing to me from within to without. Jesus transformed me through my own trials and tribulations I had endured all those painful tragic years. It all was allowed by God, for a reason-for the glory of His Eternal Kingdom. Throughout all of the years of my suffering Jesus was teaching me, guiding me, directing me, shaping me, loving me. He NEVER left my side the entire time, even though I left Him-my first true love. He took me from the ashes of an all-consuming fire raging all around me into His perfect peaceful place and He began to show me things in dreams and in visions. I never understood what I was being shown nor the importance of it all. All those years I spent screaming at Him “WHY, OH LORD, WHY?” suddenly just all made sense-I had an epiphany! He was turning me into a warrior for Him to use in these last days, so that when needed, my testimony will shine unto all who know me and they too shall see what the love of Jesus can do to someone so far gone. He made me into the great woman I am today. The second picture is me now, reformed and reborn In Christ, a strong soldier in His end-time army, called to be a watchman upon the wall for His second coming! WOW! What an honour! I don’t know if anyone else can see the difference of these two photographs…but I can FEEL it! Jesus saves! If He can do for me what has been done, He can help you too. One day I will tell my whole story; for now I will continue to walk in His footsteps ever searching His presence standing in faith that He WILL catch me when I fall…because He NEVER leaves my side. He NEVER leaves me!!!
STAND FOR JESUS CHRIST. HE IS THE WAY, THE TRUTH, AND THE LIFE. HE IS THE BREAD AND HE IS THE WINE, HE IS THE ALPHA AND THE OMEGA, HE IS THE LION OF JUDAH, HE IS MESSIAH, HE IS KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS, HE IS THE PRINCE OF PEACE, HE IS THE SAVIOUR OF THE WORLD-AND HE IS COMING BACK FOR HIS BRIDE. BE READY. BE READY TO MEET YOUR LORD YOUR KING YOUR GOD!